Sunday, April 15, 2012

Scriptures and Song Lyrics

I know I have my own, personal family, but let me tell you... if you do not have a church family, you need one!  I am by no means a "preachy" person, but I do believe and today was another day that brought me closer in my relationship to God, what his Son did for us, and Preacher Mike just had an awesome message this morning.  So, I have decided to just list a few scriptures and/or song lyrics that have helped me get through some tough times, and are helping Danny and I right now as we deal with whatever is happening to my leg (wound clinic and surgeon appointments this week) and whatever is going on with infertility (Reproductive Endo appointment tomorrow).

Also, goodness I do love me some Christian Music. My dear friend, who I have not spoken to in a long time, got me hooked and let me tell you it is a big change from my rap days... oh how I just loved rap music, blarred it, was one of those people who annoyed you with you.... not now, although I did try to listen to a local rap station a few days ago, and was quite uninterested!

Ok, gotta focus! If you have some free time, look at these scriptures, find these songs to download, and get motivated and pushed in the right direction!

1) "He never promised that the cross would not get heavy and the hill would not be hard to climb."
                     The Crabb Family "Through the Fire"
     So true... in the beginning I thought when I became a Christian it meant everything was going to be easy, get better and be fixed.... it isn't some bandaid that fixes everything and you move on.... He knows the path, and gives us what we need to get through it... we have to chose how to use what he gives us, etc.!
2)  Be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. (James 1:19)
     If you know me, you know this is hard... but, God has put this on my heart, and I have been working on it!
3)  “The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they may stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand.” Psalm 37:23-24
     Enough said, right?  Thank you Lord for holding us up when we stumble!
4)  “Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4
     A great reminder!
5)  “For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13
     Everything... anything, with and for Him!

Anyway, maybe one of these will help you get through something, and if not... turn to someone for help, or just google it.... I recently fell in love with my online K-Love radio player :)

Happy Week to you all!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Confused.... or something.

I really think that my RE, his nurse at least, thinks I am crazy. I have called 3 times in the past 3 days, but I just really want to make sure I am doing what I am supposed to do, taking the medicine at the right time, and have my upcoming appointments all scheduled correctly.

I hope that through this blog, someone stumbles upon me and can help shed light on this situation. If not, I hope through my ramblings and different things, that someone can find help through me.  There sure is a plethora of information out there, websites, forums, blogs, chats, articles, etc. out there, but I have no idea if it is accurate, does it mean the same for me, do these people have better health backgrounds, are they overweight, are they older/younger, etc.  It really can drive ya crazy!  That is why I have to be so thankful and blessed that I have people praying for me, and that my husband and I are praying about this situation.  "I can do all things through HIM who strengthens me" oh is that so true.  I can't do this walk alone, I can't do this walk with just my husband, I need HIM.  With this Holy Weekend approaching, I can't help but feel a renewing coming, a since of, its ok, lets start this journey of infertility treatments and see where it takes us.

With all that being said, I had the longest, stragenst, most "helpful" converstaion with one of my RE's nurses on the phone.  I have finally started a cycle with the use of provera. Took it for 7 days, then had to wait 10 days, but its ok, it came.  Next we had to schedule what days I will take my clomid, Days 5-9 are what my RE suggests, so that is what we will do.  Next, we had to chose between having an ultrasound midcycle (u/s from now on) or a progestrone bloodwork test done.  The nurse told me the benefits of both, and we are going with the u/s on CD 14.  By then, we will find out if we have any follicles and what days the O should be coming.  I am excited, but so scared.  All the what ifs fill your head.... all I know is that whatever will be, is going to be no matter how much I stress out about it.  "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Math 6:34., is going to hopefully help me get through.

So, we will hopefully have some kind of news by the 16th of April, what are next steps are, if this month is going to be a good month to try, or if we wait until the next cycle.  :)

Monday, April 2, 2012

Busy Weekend

So Lovie and I went to visit my parents and brother on a very quick road trip to PA this past weekend.  It was a whirlwind as we didn't even arrive until Friday after 10pm, and left Sunday by 10am, but I do love getting up there to visit. 

We had an uneventful 8 hour drive up, spent lots of time bonding, playing games like Scrabble and The Logo Game, went shopping, ate at my fav place Chipotle, and mom bought me my Easter basket presents (two outfits and cute earrings, thanks mommie)!

The way back was WONDERFUL! Although, it took 10 hours, it was filled with a first trip for my husband into IKEA! Last time we went to IKEA he just stayed out in the car and I walked the aisles looking for school supplies, what would be cute in my classroom if I could afford whatever I wanted, etc.  He ventured in, and I could tell was overwhelmed just by the "follow the arrows" on the floor so you don't get lost sense.

Needless to say, 2 hours later, many, many silly moments of us cuddling on mattresses, we left with a new mattress and bedframe/headboard!  This is huge as Lovie has never had a new bed, ever, and we were using just a metal frame for the past 2 years! 

OPPDAL Bed frame with drawers IKEA The four drawers in the bed frame provide a lot of storage space.Here is the new bed, yes, with storage underneath in the form of two drawers, each side.  Below is the headboard, yes, with storage on both sides!
OPPDAL Headboard with storage compartment IKEA Storage for things that you want to keep within easy reach from the bed.

This is huge as we are in a duplex and really pushing our limit. Someone (not me) has a LOT of clothes and needs more space! :)

Whenever we are blessed with a bundle of joy, naturally or adopted, we will have to venture back to IKEA  for our furniture. I couldn't help but take a few quick peeks at all the fun things they had there.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Yard Work....

So my lovie decided he thought we should work in the yard. I do not like working in the yard. Sure, I love watching HGTV, pinning on pinterest, and think things look amazing in yards, but to actually accomplish it will take a miracle, and I just didn't think it was in the cards today.  I will have pics to add later, but lets just say....

two trips to dump yard scraps, 4 bags of clippings/mulch at the curb to be taken away, a bag of grass seed thrown, and two hanging baskets later..... we are looking "ok"!  Whomever owned this home before us had shrubs EVERYWHERE and put said shrubs surrounded by both mulch and lava rock.

My advice to anyone getting ready for spring and yard work.

1) Lowe's is having a great sale on hanging baskets, plants, ferns until Monday.
2) Do not use lava rock, period!
3) Wear gloves if at all possible.
4)  Look at pinterest, with your wallet size in mind *bahahahaha*
5) Pallets make GREAT outside seating, picnic tables, and gardens! Pinterest, again.

P.S.-I will learn how to add buttons, etc. and then I could link you straight to the ideas on pinterest, plants on lowes, etc., but right now, I am at a loss unless someone can help!

Monday, March 19, 2012

So it "officially" begins

There is so much going on in the Fillingame household, that I feel like I need to get it all out. Eventually, maybe I will send links to friends and family, but for not, if you read this great, if not, that is fine, too!  Today I had a first appointment with the infertility specialist in Greenville.

Dr. Hayslip has been referred to me by many people, and my ob/gyn finally sent me there to get help with ttc.  I have been diagnosed with PCOS (poly-cystic ovarian syndrome) and have never had a "normal" monthly cycle.  It was great to finally get some "answers" and go ahead with our first round of medical "treatments" to ttc.  We are starting first by taking medicine to force a period.  If that works, we move into taking clomid days 5-9 of the cycle.  After that, bloodwork, and deciding if we are ready to have "date nights" as I will call them, and then go from there.

I have found a ton of helpful information, great inspirtation, etc., from blogs.  I hope to hook up with other couples going through our same predicaments.  Prayer has been helpful and I know will be something we have to keep in the forefront of all of this.  So, I will try not to turn this into only a infertility blog, ttc blog, but a blog about our life's ups and downs.  :)